I decided to use WordPress to create a sort of personal journal that i could share with anyone that reads it about the crisis i find myself in at this stage of my life. I need to be able to express what I am feeling and what obstacles I am running into to recover from years of financial abuse. I want to engage with any one who can give me wisdom. I want to share everything I am going thru in order to maybe help someone else. First off I have no money, no car, nothing in a couple of weeks I will be homeless. I have lived in this house since 1997 raised my sons here and before my husband changed it was ok. But now since he decided to use not paying the mortgage as part of his punishment I will soon be asked to leave due to foreclosure. What makes it even harder I don’t even know where he is. He has vanished. Whenever I contact him by text he’s calling me names and being cruel. So I decide that maybe there is someone out there in the universe with the wisdom I need to come thru this as VICTORIOUS and no longer a victim. I want to be able to take care of myself . I just feel like after 32 years my husband should not be able to walk away with all the financial assets and leave me with absolutely nothing. I am at least owed some alimony so I can have a start at a new life too.